Endless Summer.

The rest of this Summer is going to be awesome. Especially this weekend. So much planned already and planning so much more as well. I've been planning so much with my friends and hopefully will have a lot to Vlog about. I'm also hoping this will help me keep track of everything... I'm horrible at keeping track of my date book...

Friday June 22 - Work @ 1030 / Work @ 500 / Night out
Saturday June 23 - Movie with Dad and Sister/ Cooking for Couples Shower/ Amanda S. Bachelorette Party
Sunday June 24 - Nick and Amanda's Couples Party
Monday June 25
Tuesday June 26
Wednesday June 27 - Work @ 1030
Thursday June 28 - Work @ 1030 / Girl's night with Anna
Friday June 29 - Work @ 1030 / Work @ 500 / Night out
Saturday June 30 - Work @ 530 / Fuego or Tin Roof
Sunday July 1
Monday July 2
Tuesday July 3
Wednesday July 4 - Fourth of July Party at Anna's
Thursday July 26 - Warped Tour with Anna and Layken

remembering.

I will remember your small room, the feel of you, the light in the window, your records, your books, our morning coffee, our noons, our nights, our bodies spilled together, sleeping, the tiny flowing currents, immediate and forever. Your leg, my leg, your arm, my arm, your smile and the warmth of you who made me laugh again.

Charles Bukowski

Love is in the air.

So my friends Amanda S. and Nick are getting married on the 29th. It's going to be a small family wedding, so my friends and I are throwing a Couples Shower for them the Sunday before.

Amanda E. has asked me to help her with the finger foods and desserts. I'm so excited! It's been so long since I've been able to do something like this! I used to cook hundreds of cupcakes for my friends' parties at my old job! This is going to be so exciting.

I've already found a good amount of recipes that I'm going to send to Amanda. She's going to pick a few of them and then we're going to put together a grocery list.

I might paint Amanda a cute little Wall Decoration. :) Oh, I love weddings. This is going to be so fun!

Instant Monday

(1) Homemade Frozen Butter Beer

(2) Never growing up

(3) My dad with our Gryffindor Umbrella

(4) Ready for work. New sunglasses

(5) Jimmy John's and Beer

(6) My new favorite poison

One Step at a Time.

So I introduced you to one of my best friends Friday night... I was unbelievably stressed about it.
Out of all of my friends, she's one of the two girls who's opinion on who I date matters the most to me.

So far you're in the gold, but with some of the stupid shit that I've been dealing with lately, you might not be there for long. That conversation we had... Why did you have to bring that up? Asking me my thoughts. Where I saw this going. Where this is on my priority list. Aren't those questions that I'm supposed to be asking you? Isn't that the general roles in relationships. I guess you've learned by now that my relationships are anything but typical. I didn't get to see you Saturday or tonight. That's fine. I need a little break from you after that conversation. Although, you have my ID and I kind of need that... So I guess I'll take you up on your lunch date offer. I'm just going to hope that you don't try to start where we left off Friday night. I still don't have answers for you. Or at least the ones that you're wanting to hear.

Honestly, I much rather hear the answers from you. Where do I stand with you? Where am I on your priority list? And please tell me, why have you been fighting so hard to keep me around?

Let's Be Honest.

"I don’t have time to play games. I’m not going to sit and wait for three days for you to call me if you got my number. I’m not gonna fuckin’ make you like me by making you chase me. I’m not gonna do that shit. Like, I like you, you like me, let’s go."

Instant Monday

 

(1) Things I Like about Coffee/Things I like about you
(2) Long Curls Hairstyle for Audra's Wedding
(3) Hogwarts School at the WWOHP
(4) Princess, a Great Dane puppy
(5) 4 AM Waffle House feast with Anna
(6) My niece. Every heart will melt.

Hand to God, I thought I loved you.

And here we go again.

You think, by now, I would be used to the fickle nature of my heart and mind.
I just can't seem to let you go. Just as much as I don't want to keep you around.
I was hoping I'd figure it out by now, but of course not. My life isn't that easy.

I don't even think any of it is phasing you. It's like you're oblivious to the fact that I can't decide if I want you here or not. Which is fine with me, I guess. As far as I can tell, you're just going through your days believing I'm as happy in this relationship as you are. I guess I'll bring you down slowly. That's if I ever figure out if I want to.

I think what it is that's got me so confused is the fact that I keep talking to that one guy that I never really got the chance to be with. We're just such great friends and we have so much in common. We understand each other and it's so nice.

Don't get me wrong. I am happy. I'm as happy as someone like me can get. I'm happy here with you, but I can't help but think about being happy somewhere else.

Fell In Love Without You (acoustic)

Last night I fell in love with out you.
The stars at night aren't as big and bright
As you make them out to be.