I think I have anger issues.

Almost anything makes me want to take a bat to a TV these days... It's not okay.

I've just been having to deal with extremely immature people who are holding a grudge like their life depends on it...

It's ridiculous and I'm tired of dealing with it. I try to leave the past behind me, but it's like they enjoy throwing it back in my face any chance they get.

Seriously, get over it. You call me the pathetic one, but you're the one who dwells on this the most.

What the hell is your problem. Grow up.

It takes everything in me not to call you.

I bet you think I either moved on or hate you.
Because each time you reach out, there's no reply.
And I bet it never ever occurred to you that I can't say hello to you and risk another good-bye.

All Too Well

Maybe we go lost in translation. Maybe I asked for too much.
But maybe this thing was a masterpiece until you tore it all up.
Running scared, I was there, I remember it all too well.

thoughtsonfire. #4

It's stupid, I know, but I can't stop thinking about everything we could be. There's just something about you that keeps you at the front of my mind and on the tip of my tongue.

Taking my head out of the clouds.

bringing myself back down to earth.

Convincing myself that I'm just making this all up in my head. You don't care like I do. You probably never will. You probably don't even realize how head over heels I am for you. Maybe all I need to do is bring it to your attention... But honestly, what good will that do?

Either way, I'm breaking my own heart over this. And honestly, I don't think I'll be able to take it this time.

I shouldn't be upset.

We're friends. We're just friends. I shouldn't be getting upset about little things between us, but I can't help but feel the way I do. I worry you might try to go back to her just by the way you talk about her. 

I don't know. I did ask what happened. I wanted to know. I guess I just didn't know what I was expecting to find out.

What have I gotten myself into this time around. Reading this over, I feel like a crazy person... Just some girl pining over some boy who doesn't even really notice her.

I don't know. I just need to stop thinking about things. I need my friends to keep me level.

This weekend and next weekend can't come soon enough. I need my best friends... I need them bad.

Maybe I'm just wasting time...

I need to know where I stand with you.
It's killing me not knowing for sure. I hate this. I really do.

Why can't I just ask you? I can talk to you about everything but this. Everything but the things that I really need to know. I'm scared that I just have this whole wonderful story built up in my head and you're over there just not even thinking twice about all of this. I mean, I'm going insane over here...

I just don't know how to bring it up without being blunt about it. And I don't want to ruin anything that's going on between us. Am I feeling this all too soon? Does it even make sense for me to feel the way that I do?

Maybe I'm just going crazy. Let's just chalk it up to that...

That would seem just a bit more believable than you being hopelessly in love with me like I am with you.