One Step at a Time.

So I introduced you to one of my best friends Friday night... I was unbelievably stressed about it.
Out of all of my friends, she's one of the two girls who's opinion on who I date matters the most to me.

So far you're in the gold, but with some of the stupid shit that I've been dealing with lately, you might not be there for long. That conversation we had... Why did you have to bring that up? Asking me my thoughts. Where I saw this going. Where this is on my priority list. Aren't those questions that I'm supposed to be asking you? Isn't that the general roles in relationships. I guess you've learned by now that my relationships are anything but typical. I didn't get to see you Saturday or tonight. That's fine. I need a little break from you after that conversation. Although, you have my ID and I kind of need that... So I guess I'll take you up on your lunch date offer. I'm just going to hope that you don't try to start where we left off Friday night. I still don't have answers for you. Or at least the ones that you're wanting to hear.

Honestly, I much rather hear the answers from you. Where do I stand with you? Where am I on your priority list? And please tell me, why have you been fighting so hard to keep me around?

Let's Be Honest.

"I don’t have time to play games. I’m not going to sit and wait for three days for you to call me if you got my number. I’m not gonna fuckin’ make you like me by making you chase me. I’m not gonna do that shit. Like, I like you, you like me, let’s go."

Instant Monday

 

(1) Things I Like about Coffee/Things I like about you
(2) Long Curls Hairstyle for Audra's Wedding
(3) Hogwarts School at the WWOHP
(4) Princess, a Great Dane puppy
(5) 4 AM Waffle House feast with Anna
(6) My niece. Every heart will melt.

Hand to God, I thought I loved you.

And here we go again.

You think, by now, I would be used to the fickle nature of my heart and mind.
I just can't seem to let you go. Just as much as I don't want to keep you around.
I was hoping I'd figure it out by now, but of course not. My life isn't that easy.

I don't even think any of it is phasing you. It's like you're oblivious to the fact that I can't decide if I want you here or not. Which is fine with me, I guess. As far as I can tell, you're just going through your days believing I'm as happy in this relationship as you are. I guess I'll bring you down slowly. That's if I ever figure out if I want to.

I think what it is that's got me so confused is the fact that I keep talking to that one guy that I never really got the chance to be with. We're just such great friends and we have so much in common. We understand each other and it's so nice.

Don't get me wrong. I am happy. I'm as happy as someone like me can get. I'm happy here with you, but I can't help but think about being happy somewhere else.

Fell In Love Without You (acoustic)

Last night I fell in love with out you.
The stars at night aren't as big and bright
As you make them out to be.

I read into things. #3

"I feel insane frequently because I cannot distinguish between reality and imagination; which makes me a good writer in theory and a complete fuck up in practice. "

Rumor has it he's the one I'm leaving you for.

I need to learn how to go with my gut feeling.

I knew from the start. You are the one that I don't want.

You're too much of a reminder. Too much into my comfort zone.
I can't keep doing this to myself anymore. I'm leaving and I'm finding
something better.

Something that I really want. Someone who excites my mind, body, and soul.

I just can't hold a conversation with you... And I can't get past that. There's only so much a handsome face and amazing body will do for me.